Day 32

My weight is still up by about 5 lbs but my body fat is still in a good place so I’m trying not to stress about it. I decided that I’m just not good at sticking to the same schedule each day. If my weight is up, I want to try something different and if my weight is way down, I tend to be a little more lax. So instead of fighting my natural tendency to be sporadic, I’m just going with it. Today my weight was down 1.3 lbs so I did a 4 hour window. I felt like I ate a lot but I didn’t have dessert so that’s something.

For the last year and a half, I’ve been a full-time activist. It’s really been an amazing adventure. I’ve met so many interesting people and done things I never thought I’d be brave enough to do from organizing protests and starting my own Indivisible group to being interviewed on the news. I’m proud of myself and feel like I’m being a good role model to my girls. We have to stand up and fight for what we believe in. Anyway, I took a little break over the holidays but things are heating back up again which means things will be busy, busy, busy. This weekend will be my 3rd Women’s March. I remember how nervous I was that first march. I didn’t know anyone but met people that have become close friends. I’m no longer nervous for these kinds of events. It instead feels like a celebration of what we’ve achieved and a reminder of how much is still ahead.


Weight: 158.4 lbs


smoothie, baked chips

Pickles, berries, nuts

Bowl of chili, glass of wine,

Exercise: walk dogs 30 mins, yoga 25 mins

Day 22

I got the YUNMAI scale and it’s pretty cool. It syncs with your phone app and tells you body fat, bone mass etc. Not sure how accurate it is but it is supposed to be one of the more accurate scales. I was nervous to get on it because for the last couple of years I’ve been using a scale that only tells you how much you’ve lost or gained. So I’m always having to do math in my head to figure out my weight. I was worried that it would say I actually weighed way more than I thought but actually it was about 1 lb less.

Soooo it said my body fat was about 22% which is in the healthy range and actually for my age I shouldn’t really go much lower. My BMI is still high though so I guess I just need to lose some weight but not a lot of fat. I guess just keeping the proportions the same is key. Interesting. It definitely made me feel better though. My visceral fat was in a good range as well so that’s good.

Now I’m just confused on what my weight goal should be and what my plan should be. I swear it changes everyday. I tried for 23/1 today but just got too hungry and ended up at about 21/3. I’m pmsing so it’s to be expected I guess. The problem is I’ve gotten away from clean fasting and the stuff I put in my tea is making me hungry. I don’t really want to go back to black tea though. It’s just not enjoyable. I wish I could have cream but it gives me reflux. Cream doesn’t make me hungry probably because it’s not spiking my insulin. See my conundrum?

Well I guess I have to take it day by day for now…

156.2 lbs


Soy latte w/ stevia x2

Crackers and cheese, grapes, coconut water

2 pieces of sweet potato, ricotta and thyme bake

Several pieces of chocolate

Dry day-yay! Oh and Jon has decided to go vegetarian so I’ve joined him and the girls already were. We are officially a vegetarian household!

Exercise: yoga 30 mins, walked 3 miles

Day 17

Finally found a moment to sit down and post. We went to Los Angeles for a few days and had a lovely time. I really miss being near family and was a good reminder that we’re not alone. We do have people that love us and care about us. Sometimes I forget that we’ve got a solid clan and they’ve got our backs.

We stayed with Jon’s mom and she has such a lovely home. It feels so cozy and safe. Now if she’d just get a new mattress in the guest bedroom, life would be perfect but oh well.

We had a lovely time visiting family, going to the stunning Getty Museum and going out to dinner. I finally got to visit my 94 year old aunt whose recovering from a stroke. She was so happy to see us, it brought tears to my eyes. It’s still hard for her to communicate clearly but my daughter played piano for her on her beautiful old steinway and she was clearly moved. I’m so glad we visited her.

We got back on the 31st and Jon announced that he wanted to go vegetarian over our NYE dinner. Both Talia & Zoe are already vegetarian so I decided to hop on board as well. It’ll make cooking dinner and choosing restaurants much easier. I’m excited!

I made a bunch of New Year’s resolutions including a 5 year plan. Basically I want to be doing more with my life. I really don’t feel as if I’ve been living up to my full potential but I do have two amazing kids so it hasn’t been a waste. I’m just ready for a bit more!

Here’s what I jotted down:

2019 a year of action.

1. get finances under control

2. Declutter house

3. Get photos up

4. Fix things in house and personal items such as jewelry

5. Get health check ups for everyone in the family.

To help reach goals quit tv during the day. Start by eliminating 1/2 hr a week.

5 year plan 2019-2024

1. do the above

2. Embrace yoga lifestyle–do yoga 5x/week, become yoga certified, learn gratitude, (see the good in others), Teach yoga at home by pool? , meditate.

3. Plant-based cooking-become better, Instagram page, holiday pies? Write pie book?

4. Fasting- can I become a fasting coach? Nutrition degree?

5. Write a book about my 75 lb weight loss journey with recipes

6. Read this everyday.

Daily plan:



plant based cooking




-declutter/photos/fix things around house


health check ups

misc to do

look into education/certification

A lot of goals but why not shoot for the stars, right?

Today I did pretty good:

Weigh: 157.6 lbs (still holiday high!)

Fast: 18/5.5


Cottage cheese w/ nuts, 2 apples, tea latte

Pickles, coconut water

Coconut cassoulet, salad

Yogurt with berries and nuts

Exercise: 50 mins yoga, walked 6 miles

Day 11

(Photo: Talia in Flagstaff, AZ)

I miss when my kids were this age. So sweet and innocent and full of wonder. I love them to pieces but these teenage years are challenging. This break has been good. It’s given me and Jon time to reconnect. Also, I realize I do way too much for them. That’s the people pleaser in me. Something to work on.

Well after yesterday’s mini meltdown I realized a lot of my struggle comes from the conflict I feel about being a dieting feminist. I know fasting is supposed to be a “lifestyle” and not a diet but let’s face it, it’s got the same goal. To lose weight. We try to say that it’s to feel healthier but 90% of it is about appearance. If we’re honest. I struggle with that because I don’t like that women have to try to fit in this tiny and very specific standard of beauty. But I feel better fasting & I actually feel more sane around food. And yup, I wouldn’t mind looking fantastic in a pair of size 6 jeans. Focusing on this stuff is just who I am and that’s okay.

Today was good. I had a lunch date so I did a 17/7 with no snacking between meals. I also took a break from sweets today and that felt great after having overdone it for the last few weeks here. I think I’m going to be okay. I just need a plan I can feel good about and I need to just kind of relax into it without worrying about the scale too much.


Weight: 157 lbs (could be worse..)

Fast: 17/7


1/2 salad with salmon, cup veggie soup, sf chai

Pickles, pickled mushrooms, glass wine

Pot roast, roasted veggies

Plain yogurt, fruit, nuts

(Photo: roasted Brussels sprouts & butternut squash)

Day 10

(Photo: Proof they love each other.)

My babies. I put them on a plane two days ago to Los Angeles to be with their Bubbie. I miss them but it’s nice to have a break. And honestly their grandma is much better at keeping them entertained than I am.

Yesterday I was in a bit of a dark place. I wrote this:

“Wow, I’m frustrated. I’m tired of fasting, I’m tired of dieting. I don’t want to fast, or diet or do NoS, or watch my carbs or limit my sweets or count steps or follow any exercise or eating rules/plans. But I also don’t want to gain weight and I don’t want to eat all day and feel sick and I know I can’t do intuitive eatimg because I’ve tried it a million times and it just made me crazy (and fat). So basically nothing is left. I have no answers, no options and feel stuck. Not eating is fasting and I don’t want to do that right now either.

Not sure where all this is coming from. Probably 6 months of fasting with no more weight loss. Probably too much listening to anti-diet podcasts. Probably seeing my sister and her saying absolutely nothing regarding my 50 lbs loss. Probably me assuming that I hadn’t lost enough to warrant a compliment from her. Probably me not wanting to conform to her ridiculous standards. Boy, does she mess up my thinking. I start to lose track of what I even want for myself.

Ugh, hopefully tomorrow I will have some answers. I need to know what my plan is, right?”

Today I woke up and thought maybe I need to fast less. It seems to be getting to me. I could see me doing OMAD three times a week and then 2 or 3 meals the other days. Dr. Fung really cautions against doing the same thing every day because our bodies start to adjust so maybe this wouldn’t be a bad thing. I don’t know, I’m weary and honestly probably need to take things day to day at this point.

I did do OMAD today though and it felt pretty good. Jon & I went out to dinner. We tried a new restaurant near us and it was really nice. I ate a lot but oh well. My weight is up and it worries me. I cannot gain it all back after all this but this is a tricky time of year. No need to panic, right ?

Weight: 157.2 lbs

Fast: (about a 3 hr window)


Fried tofu, salad wedge with blue cheese

Salmon, risotto, zucchini , 2 glasses wine

Split s’mores, m&ms

Day 8

This is what happens when we try to take Tessa on a long walk–one of us ends up carrying her halfway into the walk. Oh well, I did get in my 14k steps according to my pedometer, but I feel like it’s overly generous. Maybe I need to invest in something more accurate like a Fitbit?

Well today wasn’t so great but not horrible either. Just little things adding up–financial stress, my weight, sassy teenagers. You know how it goes. Then to top it off when my girls and I were getting our nails done, the woman doing my nails asked if I was the girls mom OR grandmother? What?! I did have my girls a bit older at 35 and 37 but I’ve never had anyone ask me that before. People usually mistaken me for being younger than I am so this was a bit of a blow.

Oh well. It could be worse. Christmas makes me a bit grumpy too to be honest. It’s not easy being Jewish during this time of year especially here in Arizona. It’s not fun feeling like an outsider but all and all it’s not a big deal. We usually have Chinese food and go to the movies but this year our neighbors invited us over so my husband and I will go over there after we take our girls to the airport. They’re going to Los Angeles to visit their grandparents. I’m looking forward to a little break.

I did fairly well with my OMAD but did have a few extra pieces of chocolate and a stray glass of wine outside my window. I’m not going to stress about it. Sometimes I wonder if I should even bother trying to lose anymore weight. Would it really increase my happiness that much? I don’t know. It would make shopping more fun though right?

Oh well, just a bit of an off day but tomorrow will be better, I’m sure.



Pears, pickles, nuts, tea latte

Cincinnati spaghetti chili ( , chips, glass of wine

Chocolate, glass of wine

(Photo: Forgot to take a pic of the food but here’s my pot being filled.)

Exercise: 15k steps

Weight: 156.8 lbs 😏

Day 7

(Photo: Tessa so happy to be finally coming home from the groomers.)

Despite my best intentions, taking Tessa to the groomers was about the only thing I accomplished today. Well I did make my kids chocolate chip pancakes and finish all the laundry so there’s that, but other than that, it was definitely a lazy Sunday.

I was hungrier than normal but managed to wait till 2pm to eat. It definitely feels good to finally be consistent with my plan. However, as I was listening to Kayla’s new podcast (, I did start to wonder if exercise was the missing piece for me. That’s one thing I really haven’t figured out and it’s been very hit or miss. I know Kayla doesn’t attribute much of her success to the walking part of her plan, but I can’t help wonder if it would help.

For awhile I was training for a mud run and really enjoying it but after learning about all the various injuries that commonly take place during those races, I really lost my motivation. When I thought about it, walking really does make the most sense. I can do it anywhere and with very little equipment. I can even walk in my house if needed. We’ve got a fairly large one story house so there’s really no excuses.

(Photo: Even Tessa gets tired walking down this long hallway.)

Because I’m completely unoriginal, I’m just going to adopt Kayla’s plan of 14k steps. Hey, seems to be working for her. I have a cheap pedometer but may need to upgrade at some point. We’ll see how it goes.


Fast: 18/5


Today’s weight: 155 lbs

Highest weight: 210 lbs

Weight starting IF: 175 lbs

Goal weight: 135 lbs

Short-term goal: 154 lbs


Nuts, fruit, smoothie, veggie patty

Asian chicken salad, bread

Few pieces of chocolate, glass of wine

Exercise: none :/

Day 6

(Photo: Sunrise while I was biking along the canal. I used to get up every morning at the crack of dawn. What happened to this girl?)

I found this photo while going through all my pictures as I was trying to make room on my phone. I have a serious storage problem. I ended up getting rid of over 400 pictures. Looking through all those photos of my past life had a strange effect on me, however. Do you ever feel jealous of your own life? That’s how I felt while looking through my old pictures of ski trips, beach vacations, our trip to Alaska and all those delicious dinners out with friends. Sitting on the couch watching 90 day fiancé and drinking wine just doesn’t compare. I guess it’s time to plan something fun to do. I’m thinking two weeks camping along the coast of Oregon this summer.

Today was nice but uneventful. I did however convince my 15 year old to walk the dogs with me. Was a beautiful, perfect day and we laughed at all the mischief our furry friends got themselves into with neighborhood dogs and cats jumping out of bushes and tangled leashes. Not exactly relaxing but fun nonetheless. My oldest daughter is going through a bit of a hard time right now with her first break-up ever so I’m really trying to spend as much time with her as possible. High school can be a rough time, but I know she’ll be fine.

(Photo: Zoe getting ready for a dance last year.)

My Fast

According to my plan, I’m doing 19/5 on Saturday and Sundays just to give me a little bit of a break on the weekends. Kayla had talked to me about doing a “cheat day” or a day off but I find those don’t work so well for me. I tend to just graze all day long and end up feeling sick by the evening. It’s just not enjoyable to me plus my weight is up so much the next day and can take a few days to come back down which can be discouraging. The longer windows work better for me. I get a little break but I don’t feel out of control.

I did pretty well. I had a snack and then a meal around 3:30 and didn’t want much more after that. I closed my window at 7pm but then I really wanted a glass of wine so went ahead and had one. Maybe I need to write that into my plan for the weekends. I need to be realistic.

My weight is steady. It really seems to just want to stay between 154-156 lbs. Not sure if I’ll be able to get below that. We shall see!

19/5 (but a glass of wine outside of my window.)


Current: 155 lbs

Highest weight: 210 lbs

Weight starting IF: 175 lbs

Short-term goal weight: 154 lbs

Long-term goal weight: 135 lbs


Cottage cheese, fruit, nuts, 1/4 bagel

Turkey sandwich, bbq chips, chai

Few pieces of chocolate, glass of wine

Exercise: walked 2 miles

Time for bed! My plan for tomorrow is 19/5 and maybe some light weights.

Day 4


I got my haircut today and it always gives me a boost in my self-confidence. Not only do I feel good about my appearance but my hairdresser always showers me with compliments. She’s known me when I was 210 lbs and has been with me throughout my entire weight loss journey. She probably doesn’t realize this but her encouragement really helped to keep my motivation up at times.

As I was sitting in styling chair today, I thought back to a time when I refused to even look in the mirror and let me tell you that was quite a feat. And now here I am taking selfies. Who would have thought? I’m forever grateful for my hairdresser’s kindness. For awhile the only time I felt good about myself was on haircut day. It’s definitely nice to be able to feel good on my own now but haircut days are still particularly special.

I had serious Appetite Correction today and wasn’t able to eat much. Also, the salad that I always get at Chipotle just didn’t taste good today. It’s interesting how ones taste can change on Intermittent Fasting. If you haven’t read Appetite Correction by Bert Herring, I highly recommend it.

Tikka and Tessa

(Photo: My fur babies Tikka & Tessa. )

Finally got a chance to walk my fur babies this morning. They ask for so little and give so much. The least I can do do is take them for a little walk. Besides the weather is beautiful in Arizona right now. Today was 70 degrees with clear skies. I’m hoping to get in some hiking this weekend.

Fast: 23/1.5

Weight: 156.2 lbs


Tea latte

Yogurt, fruit, nuts

1/2 chicken salad, couple of chips

8 peppermint kisses

Exercise: walked dogs 25 mins

Day 3

Exciting day for my baby girl!

Today was an exciting day in our household. My youngest daughter, Talia, got her braces off and my older daughter, Zoe, had her last day of school before Winter Break. I took them both out to lunch so I ended having another 2mad day. I really don’t like have two 2mad days in a row but I’m still following my plan so it’s okay. Just that time of year when there’s a lot of social situations to contend with but things will calm down soon enough. Besides, we went one of my favorite vegetarian restaurants, The Coronado. They make the best cauliflower tacos and it’s in this old funky house downtown. Lots of charm and coolness factor.

(Photo: Cauliflower Tacos from The Coronado in downtown Phoenix.)

Things are so crazy right now with the holidays and everything that goes with that. I’ve barely had time to clean my house or do laundry and it’s stressing me out a bit. I did find time to make myself a nice chai tea that enjoyed while watching The Office with my girls.

All an all it was a good day but I’m looking forward to getting back to OMAD tomorrow. In fact I shouldn’t have any other events that will take me away from OMAD till Christmas Day. My weight was down a little but a I’m worried that I won’t lose any weight on this plan. I guess we will have to wait and see. Patience.


Fast: 17/7

Weight: 157.2 (Still high! I was 150.2 just a few weeks ago)

Food: Lunch–2 cauliflower tacos, chai tea

Snack–pickles, handful of nuts, tea

Dinner–1 piece of goat cheese strata, broccoli with brown butter.

Dessert-1 biscotti with tea

Exercise: none :/